Last tuesday 💛

Not that concerned today.  Feels more unreal and far away than yesterday. I think I'm just too tired to worry so much. 

Got up at 11. Postponed drs, absa and COO app till tomorrow. Forgot that Betty is coming tomorrow so I'd actually not want to be at home so that we're not under each other feet. Tomorrow will be busy but hopefully only the morning. Sternberg can then fax it Thursday so then at least they have it.

Goals: make more food, nails waxes.

Anxious 1/10

Achieved: made lots of food. Still not done but at least fridge is filling up fast. Got cute nails done (pic below) and all my waxes done. But what was interesting  was my wax. Damn it

Hurt!!! I'm not a sensitive person but it genuinely hurt like hell. Maybe more blood flow making the area more sensitive? Don't know but glad it's over....

Last Monday 💚

Up at 4 because my body was so uncomfortable and started painting..... So did what any normal girl does... Ate 3 yes 3 slices of toast and watched 27 dresses. In bed at 6,up again at 7:30 to make hubby lunch. Napped again till 9:30 then had to get up to get ready to organsie UIF docs. First to Comm of Oath. Ended up going to wrong place so had to go back to police station. At least got it certified then on to bank to 1st: Change my surname to my married one, then get the UIF form filled out. As luck would have it, the Casa system was offline and they couldn't do the surname change.... At least she was able to fill out the UIF form so long but tomorrow it's back to the bank. Last trip was to my Dr to get the medical certificate filled out stating that I was indeed pregnant (ya, like I would fake all this fat and discomfort....) Annnddd as all good service providers, I had to make a app for tomorrow to get the forms signed..... 

Headed home after this but them started meal preps for the upcoming week so that we don't have to worry about food. Did make a awesome choc protein brownie overnight oats. Was loooovvveeelllyyy.... Gnomie starting to stress and is convinced that Miss Scarlett will come early. I doubt it.. Yes I have had several BH but no other symptoms. I think she'll stay in there till the 21st. At least it gives us time to prepare. 

Feelings: unreal, having pain and BH. Lower back pain at night again.

Anxious:  4/10

Goals today: COO, bank, drs rooms

Achieved: went to COO but didn't get everything certified that I needed too.

Banks offline, headed back tomorrow

Drs rooms: made app for tomorrow

Pics:

Overnight oats I made today. Seriously good! 

Last week at work

I have been very quiet the last month... I think it's just baby prep and nerves that have sent me into a hiding hole. This is my last week at work. Excited to be finishing work and too have next week to myself to rest and mentally prepare for my little girls arrival!!! 

This week at work I just want to finialise small things. Also I'm seriously considering silencing all my work related email, group chat etc while I'm on maternity!!! Seriously don't want my work  bothering me with crap while on taking care of a newborn!! :( And of course I've been pinning to my hearts content :D So many cute ideas for my little girl! 

This is the hospital photo I plan on introducing her to the world with! (Of course, mamas going to take her red lipstick with!)

I'd love this in her nursery wall, if I could just find the decal!

Beside the niceties of being a new mommy, I'm also dealing with the admin... Claiming UIF is effort. The queues are ridiculous so I'm seriously considering using a UIF claim service. I hope it's legit and that I'm not going to be ripped off but at this point I'm willing to try anything so that I don't have to stand in those queues.... I'll let you know how it goes :D At least everything with my medical aid is in order so I can relax about that.

Now just the wait.....

:'(

Not been a great day today. For the 2nd time in a month and a half i was in a fender bender... While in a traffic circle a guy T-boned me. Im starting to think i shouldnt be driving red cars.... This is my 3rd accident in a red car. My excess is R4000. Yet another expense i didnt plan on spending. My husabnd said he would gladly pay it so we can get my car fixed and i am very grateful for that and him, but im still not feeling better. Im almost 31 and i feel like i have achieved nothing in life. I dont own any property, i earn a pathetic salary, i have a failed enagagment behind me that almost crippled me, all i have is debt, i have a failed buisness that is still costing me R2800 pm for the next 3 yrs, i have no savings.

My husband owns the house we live in, he has 2 flats, earns a excellent salary, is a engineer with a Masters degree... He pays for everything... I feel incredibly pathetic and under-achieving now... I know it will pass but this is not a great moment for me. Could also be pregnancy hormones and the fact that i am very unhappy with my body right now that is making this worse. Hopefully tomorrow will be better....

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:((((

Tonight is tough.... My husband had some issues at his work on major project he is working on. Unfortunately the issues that arised where his fault... :(

It was a genuine mistake on his part and it can be rectified but obviously his bosses are not happy with him. He is so down and upset, I don't know what to do to cheer him up! It's not the end of the world but he feels like it is for him.

That's one thing people can't prepare you for when you get married, is how your spouses career affects you. Yes, maybe it's obvious that it will but so intensely??? I feel that his issues affect me more than my work issues. He's the bread winner so if something happens to his work, we'll be in trouble... 

But also, I am over reacting. This is one mistake that can be rectified. I just need to learn to relax! I really wish I would worry less. It's not good for me, my baby or my family. Maybe I should try yoga? It meditation? Need to figure this out...

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