Engagement shoot and gym

So we received our engagement shoot photos. I was initially very unhappy with them. It seems our photographer didn't edit them AT ALL! I expected a bit of editing here and there but nothing! My stockings are sticking out in several photos and some poses are sooo unflattering I look pregnant again!!!! There

Where a few nice ones that i uploaded but out of 90 pics I loved 38. That's less than half!! I seriously hope he does better job with the wedding photos as he is a

Very expensive photographer and I'm not paying him over R20000 for shit pics. 

Another concern is me. I genuinely looked bad in some of them....

I'm bigger than what I thought I was. I'm not looking forward to the wedding at all. I regret doing this. We should just have left it at the marriage officer. I'm also seriously stressing about leaving my daughter for so long. I just want all

Of this to be over

Another area of stress for me right now is out canada immigration. The Canadian services called yesterday and said we would get a full result this weekend. I'm shitting myself. I'm so nauseous with worry over everything....

Work politics

I am the worst blog keeper ever!! Seriously.... But I have the excuse of having started working again. Back in the chaos and drama that is lab work :( 

I've come to realize that I am not a person for politics. I have officially been at this company for 6 years today. Can I say it's been fun? Definitely not but it's been one hell of a learning curve. I have the displeasure of working for a boss who is a pro at playing politics. I am not. And I've realized this when I started work again after 4 months of maternity leave and discovered that a position I have wanted for 3 years had been given so someone else while I was gone. And the reason? They thought I wouldn't want to be in a management position with a baby as it would mean longer hours etc. BULLSHIT. I am not fucking stupid nor was I born yesterday. I know the reason I wasn't chosen and this particular person was but I don't want to go into it on my blog. Let's just say it's a ridiculously unfair situation. I am however taking it all in my stride. My boss doesn't know I am immigrating and I'll be enjoying the moment I get to tell her I'm leaving. Besides this, I'm taking joy in the fact that I still get my normal salary as well as not having all the responsibility and shit that goes with being a manager. I'm going to focus on my new little family until it is time to restart our lives in Canada. 

With regards to that, I'm still waiting to hear from the immigration lawyers. It hasn't been the 60 days that they said it would take but it's damn almost and I haven't heard anything? Emailed them now to enquire what is happening. 

Being in a snail shit position in the lab also gives me more time to focus on my health. I'm getting very serious with regard to my fitness and have now emailed Heidi Somers enquiring about costs with regard to getting a personalized workout and diet from her. Will keep you updated on that.

This is about the most exciting that has happened in my life.

Have a awesome day readers :)))))